(Brazil) i let go

i never thought i could get caught up like that like i’d lose myself like i’d let someone change who i am i always thought i was strong and knew exactly who i was but there i was giving everything i had trying to fix stuff that wasn’t even mine to fix at first it felt good like all the movies the attention the fun the rush but then slowly i started to feel like i was getting smaller like i wasn’t even me anymore just second guessing always wondering if i was enough felt like i just lost myself stuck in his world saying it wasn’t working was the hardest part tho i thought if i said it out loud people would think i was weak or that i messed up but when i finally let myself admit it i realized it wasn’t failing it was just growing i deserved more than just surviving i deserved to feel good i made mistakes god did i make mistakes i held on too long gave too much let things slide i wouldn’t have let anyone else get away with but with every fight every tear i learned something new about myself like where my limits were what i could put up with and what i’d never let slide again i’m not that girl anymore the one i was when i first met him i know who i am now and i don’t need anyone to tell me i’m worth it i still remember the lessons but they don’t weigh me down anymore if you’re scared to walk away from something that isn’t right for you just take one step even if you don’t know where it’s going even if it’s messy and painful you’ll find yourself again