(Canada) I Never Knew I could cry

i don’t even know why i’m writing this, but i guess it’s just been sitting on my chest for a while, i’ve always been the person who doesn’t cry, not when i was a kid, not when bad stuff happened, not ever, i just never saw the point, like crying doesn’t change anything, it doesn’t fix anything, so why bother, i always thought it made me strong, like if i could just keep it all in and move forward, i’d be fine, but then this one random day, it wasn’t even a big deal or anything, i was driving home from work, and this song came on, this old song i hadn’t heard in years, it just came on out of nowhere, and for some reason, it broke me, like all of a sudden i couldn’t hold it together anymore, i had to pull over because i couldn’t even see straight, and i just started crying, not little tears either, like the full-on sobbing kind where you can’t even breathe properly, it wasn’t even about the song, it was everything, it was all the stuff i’ve been holding in for god knows how long, missing people, missing myself, feeling like i’m always carrying the weight of everything and never letting it go, it just all came out at once, and honestly, it felt weird, but it also felt like maybe it was what i needed, like i’d been holding my breath for years and finally let it out, i never thought i’d be the kind of person who cries, but here i am, and i guess that’s okay, i don’t know, i just wanted to put this out there somewhere, it feels good to say it even if no one’s listening